Practicum Journey_The Beginning

This is to record my inner world responses throughout the journey to make sure I do not miss any clues to better myself. Self-awareness and being grounded are always the first things to pursue as a good counselor.

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I felt myself avoiding some clinical information or assessments, like assessments of disorders. Deep down it's about my lack of confidence in handling these, including the absorption of knowledge and my in-session judgement. I felt the urge of rushing to the emotional treatment and skipping the assessment stage (My mind automatically made up lots of reasonable and beautiful excuses to skip this). I would need to slow myself down and be courageous enough to walk through this. The only way to combat fear is to face it and find that this is not that horrible. Now what I can do at home is to learn about related knowledge:

• Assessments and Symptoms of Schizophrenic spectrum disorders
• Physical conditions of diabetes
• Assessment and Symptoms of Dementia (and maybe MMSE?)

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There is one more thing I'm worrying about. If a client really shows some probability of Schiz, am I still doing EFT for him/her? My tutor mentioned that it may not be suitable for Schiz clients, but some researches do not say so. Maybe I need to spare some time to do some study too. "Do no harm" is first principle.

Schiz & EFT

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The intake sessions sounds not bad and quite smooth, yet I know what really happened in my heart were some confusion and ungroundedness. I felt myself driven but not autonomously controlling what I did. Hence I started to practice mindfulness again, hoping that I can raise the sensitivity to my self.