Cognitive Dissonance for Things-too-Good

Sometimes you discover something when you don't expect to. And this time, you found that you can be more precious in others' eyes than you think yourself are. Now I know why. Thanks my Lord. How lucky I am. I know not everyone is lucky enough to have this in his lifetime. Now I'm holding this in my hand when I'm still young without crazily searching around. It's just too beautiful to be true. Won't it be too easy for me? It's unfair to others I'll say. Too good to happen on me. There's no way I dare to take it for granted. I am seizing it. Definitely. I'm not letting it go. What else should I ask for? Enough. Enough for me. Right, why should I think about all those potential problems or bad results? Why bother to think too much? Things go well and it really can't be better. Maybe... It's just too good so I don't believe it matches the reality. That's why I keep raising my worries to "keep it balance", to make it sounds realer. (Hahaha I've never known that Cognitive Dissonance can also happen on things-too-good but not only things-worse-than-cognition.) Well I don't have to, cause it's real! Why don't I just simply happily accept this and give thanks? Right. I know what I should do in the future. Be simple. Be thankful. "Don't worry, be happy!" HAHAHA Thanks my Lord. Thanks.

死的勇氣從何而來？

　　其實身邊的人都很疼我，自己原來那麼不懂惜福。

　　今天遇到的那件事，讓我不禁在想：「人的絕望是來自沒有被陪伴和被愛，還是不知道自己被愛？」或許對於他來說是前者，我不知道他背後的故事。如果真的如此，那這社會這世界未免太不堪，竟然連一句問好也分不出來給他。我相信，一句關心就足以讓一個人找到一點希望。我總覺得，只要有一個活著的理由，就抵得過一萬個想放棄生命的理由。除非，就那麼一個放棄生命的理由就足以奪去所有活著的理由。其實這明明就不成立。會這樣發生不過是因為上面提到的後者，不知道自己被愛。就因為一個盲點，而人只定睛於盲點，他以為某些人的不愛他就反映著全世界都不愛他。

　　那麼，有被陪伴和被愛是不是就等於不會放棄生命。不，有人就偏因為愛而選擇以結束生命作為他愛的方式。愛，給人勇氣活著，也給人勇氣尋死。我不敢說這做法一定不對，但至少對很多人來說是錯的。自私的死去成就自己偉大的犧牲。他有沒有問那些他愛的人要的是甚麼？有時候答案很單純：「我只要你繼續在我身邊。」何必把事情想得那麼複雜？甚麼成為負擔、造成傷害。所以，一個人死了就等於在世上造成的苦通通解脫？天真，你的苦或許在生命結束一刻就解脫，可是你卻留你愛的人在沒有你的陪伴下面對痛苦的延長賽，而且還加一道永遠失去了你的傷口。這是就是你苦苦考量後覺得最好的愛他的方式？

對不起我不打算推敲邏輯或合理性。這些來自我的感性而非理性。無意攻擊任何人。或許我還很稚嫩，還不了解現實。這跟那些支不支持安樂死的議題有異曲同工之妙。容許我這不懂世事的小毛頭以一派胡言做些無謂的情感發洩。我只知道，我不想記住今天的那畫面。